I spoke to my boss on Sunday night and begged her for a day off today (Wednesday). I knew I would be too sad to work today. Ben had to leave last night for his next project – without me. He is now around four thousand miles away. I am kinda fed up about that.
As this is a long project, the plan originally was for me to go with him. However, over the past couple of weeks things have changed. The UK government have put more restrictions on travel. Ben is exempt from the restrictions due to the nature of his work. But he did take another test anyway for his own peace of mind and he was negative again.
We were advised that I would not be exempt from the travel restrictions and in addition they strongly discouraged Ben from pressing that I had to travel with him as he will be away for at least a month. Ben has said he will press the issue. It is in his contract that on projects over two weeks his SO can travel with him. But of course the pandemic is meaning he is under pressure to waive that. After a week of discussing it with me and hearing me resolutely say I cannot stay here without him for over a month, possibly six weeks, and debating it with his bosses, Ben has had to go out there to start work and leave the situation over my travel in the laps of the powers that be.
I am in a funk. The sad thing is before Ben left I was very sulky too. I wish I had been able to be happier. Now he is four thousand miles away and he is anxious about me.
Well I am having today off and I need to rest and get myself together. I was so miserable from the moment on Sunday morning when Ben told me he was going to have to get on that plane without me.