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Thanks for your summation of my intellect, my reasoning abilities, my expression of faith. Thanks for that.

Thanks for considering me an embarrassment, a disgrace, “hopeless” was the word you used a number of times. Thanks for that.

What surprises me is that this is the best thing I have ever done with my life, making time to think about the universe and the purpose to life, searching for answers to deep questions – to be honest, I was pleased with myself. You quashed all of those budding hopes that I could be on the right track. Thanks for that.

Stupid. Hopeless. Thanks for that.

Would you like to tell me what you are expecting of me now?

As I seem to so often fail to live up to your expectations and your ideals, I must be stupid because I have no idea what you are expecting of me now.

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This is me expressing a little pain of heart. I happened to mention something I did over the weekend that was faith related….the response I received was “are you stupid?” and then something in between a lecture and a prejudicial rant in which I was called hopeless several times and all my mistakes and misjudgements over the years were recounted.

It seems I am not qualified to use the brain in between my ears.

I am ok Gemma. I wrote this on Monday when I was still stinging. But Ben has been cheering me up. He does not think I am stupid. He thinks I have a beautiful mind and heart. But I think he is biased as I am the one who makes him tingle in unmentionable places.

It would be nice to have someone tell me I am not completely delusional, but I have learnt that when it comes to beliefs and faith it is hard to find someone who is 100% impartial. In fact beliefs can be so deep they can provoke some very strong words and judgements from other people….who often feel they are defending their own beliefs or vindicating themselves in righteousness in dismissing yours.

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Well listen honey, you are talking to a die hard atheist here and the only faith I have is in myself, but that being said, I will say this, each to their own. You have your own reasons for your faith, it supports you how you need it to. There is absolutely nothing wrong with that, it fills a spiritual need that nothing else can.
We don’t have to understand it, we do however have to accept that we all have the right to our own beliefs. It does not make you stupid or hopeless, it makes you Jenna. Beautiful, lively, intelligent and caring. Don’t let anyone tell you different.
💋💖

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No… not stupid, not hopeless, not an embarrassment, not a disgrace. The “cancel” generation says cancel that – every word! So…. in case you need a reminder or someone to tell you what you really are, here are my top 20 words that describe you, Jenna. With love.

Friendly
Generous
Kindhearted
Thoughtful
Admirable
Caring
Giving
Understanding
Encouraging
Critical-Thinking
Brave
Helpful
Tender
Esteemed
Cherished
Valued
Appreciated
Blessed
Loved
LOVED

So I said “Loved” twice. Once more emphasized because there is more than one in that group that loves you. Keep that in mind. 💖

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Who said you were stupid? This Wicked Witch of The North shall rev up her broom and fly over to kick said person’s butt! No one calls anyone stupid on my watch! Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr I read in the comments that you are feeling better now but still ignore the dunderhead. I am being nice as it is your blog. 🙂

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Sometimes it is people who are related to you who seem to forget kindness. It was family Jay-lyn. It was just unexpected that they would be so forceful about something I did that they didn’t agree with. I did not do anything wrong. I listened to a zoom service commemorating Jesus sacrifice. I was surprised at their reaction. Anyway…I want to put it behind me now, but it left a bitter taste.

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I can only imagine. Next time tell them you have the Wicked Witch of the North on speed dial and I will get on my broom and be over in a flash. Families can be asshats that is for sure. I still have not been in same room as my brother in over 3 years. And won’t be until he stops being an ass. 😂😂😂😂😂😂

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