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I Foretell Joy And Tribulation

I realized I had very mixed feelings on this subject when I thought about what to write. Thank goodness I do not have the ability to foretell the future, neither my own future, nor anyone else’s. It would have been awful to feel trapped by a destiny I could not control. I have gleaned so much joy in knowing that I can make my own decisions and change the course of my life, that I truly do have free will. Yet, with regards the future, deep down I now have the feeling that even if it is a very bumpy journey, everything will be alright one day.

Since I was a young child, I sometimes wished I had possessed the ability to foreknow, foresee, foretell when it came to mistakes, accidents, and calamities. But I realized that if all the soothsayers in all the world could not predict accurately that on the morning of Tuesday 11th September 2001, one of the most horrific acts of terrorism the world has seen was about to take place – well – they are pretty worthless. I suppose in a more general way, there had been some very interesting forecasts about people’s attitudes that had been made and did indeed prove true. I do credit those who use wisdom to see in advance the way situations are developing, the way undercurrents of a particular issue are steering people. I believe the forecasts I have heard that there is tribulation ahead for this world.

Forecasting is a part of the world we live in. Decisions have to be made by farmers, fishermen and construction projects in relation to the weather forecasts. Financial investments are made on the basis of market forecasts. Forecasting is not always accurate as we can see from recent political polls which got it very wrong!! But forecasting is a regular part of our life. We have become dependant on various forms of forecasts. Most of that is not based on any occult methods, it is based on the analysis of vast amounts of data.

I cannot accurately foretell future events, predict accidents, avoid tragedies or even know exactly when Hermes will turn up with my new dress. (They are playing games with me – playing games of “Knock and Run” despite the note on the front door asking them to allow me time to get to the front door. Am I supposed to stand behind the front door all day every day until they show up?) The ability to foretell the future might seem rather mystical and spooky, (and yeah, manipulating spirit creatures have used the desire of humans to foreknow their future to mislead them for millenniums) but to a degree we may be able to predict elements of our future based on our previous steps.

Part of my job role includes financial predictions. It is not based on divination, but rather analysing markets, trends, judging consumer mood and other factors. Sometimes we get it wrong…but we are expected to foresee developments based on the patterns that are emerging.

Take this past couple of years. The world was caught out by surprise when an invisible virus reeked havoc, despite everything science has learnt. Whilst some governments confined their population to their homes and enforced what some viewed as draconian measures, other rulers froze in hesitancy and ended up allowing the virus to become rampant before they decided “perhaps we should close cinemas and bowling alleys for a start”!!! I was certainly not expecting a pandemic to bring the way of life we all took for granted to a halt.

However, if you had asked me to predict how Ben would have reacted to the Pandemic and the challenges it threw up…well, I could have foretold accurately what would happen. Practical, calm, sensible, wise…he kept his cool and made the best of the situation he was in. Ben has a very high-pressured job, with a lot of responsibility, a lot of deadlines, and he is paid a salary that indicates just how much is expected of him. Yet, he is so good at dealing with that stress, and switching off to work and allowing himself to relax. How have Pandemic and other challenges effected our relationship? Ben made every effort to make sure I did not become overly anxious, he made every effort to make sure I felt loved, protected, and safe. It’s been a tough year and a bit, but the end result is a stronger relationship with Ben – more love than before – more trust than before – more appreciation than before.

Even more than before the Pandemic, I know that I want to journey through life with Ben, who has shown a great deal of foresighted wisdom and continues to amaze me with his preparedness whenever a trial comes along.

It’s all given me so much more confidence for the future. I do not know exactly what is in store for the world for the rest of this year, or next year, or the year after. I think the Pandemic is the tip of the iceberg when it comes to highlighting how inadequate the political economic system is. I expect there to be more tough times ahead. I have become more and more convinced that we need the one who forecasted the results of humans trying to govern themselves (pain, suffering and grief) to help us recover from the car crash it has become.

Whatever takes place in the future, I do predict with confidence that Ben will show his inner strengths and stay calm. I really want to tag along with Ben no matter what may happen in the future. I expect there will be challenges, there may be tribulation, but I also know there will be joy.

If the unthinkable happens and I lost my Ben….I would be devastated, but I would also be a better person for having spent almost three years of my life as his lover. There is no way I can be sure exactly what will happen tomorrow, or next month, or next year, but on the basis of everything I have seen about Ben, I can predict that even in tribulation, there will be joy – the kind of joy that comes with purpose and conviction and love.

10 replies on “I Foretell Joy And Tribulation”

Great post, lots of insightful thoughts and musings to considet. Ben does seem worthy of your devotion, and I’m very hopeful you continue to explore new frontiers together.

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