Sex has improved since I was aged twenty-one. I don’t in any way mean that as an insult towards my first boyfriend. We were both learning. I felt safe. His parents and my parents were friends. We had both been given a lot of advice about safe sex. I am sure there was love between us, even if it does seem like a long time ago now.
But we were trying out what we understood were the basic mechanics of sex, trying to copy sex scenes we had seen in movies, and some of it was nice. It was nice. Perhaps we were just too young. When I look back, I am not sure why it is that now I get so much more satisfaction and enjoyment out of sex.
It could simply be a matter of how much I love Ben. It could be that Simon taught me a lot about increasing pleasure in sex. It could be that Greg taught me what it is to give my body over to someone and let them take their fill. I don’t know. But I know that sex has improved a great deal since I was twenty-one.