Everyday, people I know and love and am grateful for use an expression that is starting to annoy me:
I understand why they are saying it. But I am so tired, so very tired. These months of struggling with my mobility, the anxiety over my diagnosis, the surgery and now the treatment ahead of me – I just want to crawl into the back of a cave and hibernate until it is all over.
Ben has learnt to stop telling me to be positive. He has switched to a new phrase, “We are going to fight this Jenna”, he tells me. I like that he says “we”. I don’t feel I have the strength within me to fight anything. I am exhausted. But Ben is strong, and he is a great source of strength to me.
For him, I will keep fighting.