When I saw the theme for this week was EPIPHANY, my mind began to wonder to occasions in my life when I had a sudden realization – things clicked in my mind – and I changed in a significant way. those lightbulb moments are pivotal in steering the course of your life.
To share these would likely cost me a lot of emotional effort, and I have to admit I am wiped out by my meecrowahnvey sessions.. So instead, I am going to write about an epiphany I had when it came to me writing.
I WANT TO KEEP MY INTEGRITY AND BE AUTHENTIC TO ME
There was a stage when I was writing to please others. I noticed the more saucy I made a story, the more positive comments it received. Sometimes I had written a story that I hated, but because it was more explicit it seemed to be more popular.
Eventually I realized I did not want to write just to give strangers kinky kicks. I wanted to write about romantic dreamy love and purposeful loyal love. That’s what I want to write about, that’s what I want to read about, that’s what I want in my own life.
I love sex and sensuality and eroticism – but I want to write about it my way….to me it’s something beautiful, something I am thankful for, something that is a big part of the deeply meaningful relationship I am in.
So, I am just going to be me!