While I Was Sleeping #3

To help me preserve my emotional health while my physical health is failing, Ben asked me to spend time…

…thinking about all of the things that make me smile, make me happy. He recommended trying to think of things I can enjoy now, even though I am ill, but also things that have added meaning and joy to my life in the past, and things I can daydream about being able to enjoy again in the future.


Today I want to celebrate something that has been bringing me so much pleasure recently…


I have mentioned before that we are about to move out of the home that has been our base for the past three years. Lots of our friends and colleagues have sent cards and flowers when they discovered how ill I have been lately.

My goodness…our home is like a perfumery. The scents and colours from bouquets in every room. It is so beautiful.

Which fills my heart with emotion. Creation is so intoxicatingly beautiful. It really is. My mind has been full of all the talk of COP26 and the video footage we have seen of our amazing planet. I have also been wondering how long this body of mine is going to be able to go on for with my current prognosis. I would love to see another spring and summer. I just love the colours and fragrances of spring.

Live is so incredibly precious. I have a deep desire to be alive forever and ever and ever, for life on this amazing planet to never ever end. Flowers are filling my home and my life with delight…and it means so much to me.

17 replies on “While I Was Sleeping #3”

Jenna you have to live forever, you are far too precious to just get through one more spring and summer. You have to have many more springs and summers, how else will you say all the things you wish to say, do all the things you wish to do, share all the love you have inside you with all the people you love? Inhale the scents of all the flowers you have yet to come across? Stay brave Miss Pink and when you can’t be brave, sleep and heal. Much love Jenna, much love.💖💖💖Gem.

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Thank you so much Gemma. You are so lovely.
I think the honest conversations Ben and I are having seem to be spilling into my writing.
I am strong of heart at the moment, just very weak physically.
Had some ghastly things happen to my body recently, and it is tiring.
But I am strong of heart – and I am appreciating every little thing that makes life so beautiful.
I would be very happy to live forever – I have a very very long list of things I would like to do and see and I would want all the people I love to be a part of that forever.

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