While I Was Sleeping #4

To help me preserve my emotional health while my physical health is failing, Ben asked me to spend time…

…thinking about all of the things that make me smile, make me happy. He recommended trying to think of things I can enjoy now, even though I am ill, but also things that have added meaning and joy to my life in the past, and things I can daydream about being able to enjoy again in the future.


Today I want to bring happy memories of the past to my mind. I have been thinking about the times I spent with my parents in the US when I was growing up. The outstanding memory I have of feeling very happy was when we spent a weekend:


My parents have had a boat for as long as I can remember. It was their ultimate escape I guess, a chance to switch off. But there was also a social circle made up of other wealthy boat owners. That’s how I met my first boyfriend. His parents had a boat too.

It’s the memories from childhood though that I am most fond of, before was even aware of such a thing as “a social circle”. I just loved the feeling of being on a boat, the breeze rushing by, the sway that made my tummy feel funny, the splashing spray of water. It was something I always found exciting.

I also remember being happy I was with my parents. I never questioned as a child that I had to stay with other relatives when my parents were travelling. I accepted it and was content. But it meant so much to be back with my mom and dad.

It’s a long time since I saw my parents. It’s a long time since they answered the phone when I called. It’s along time since I heard anything from them. I want to keep my happy memories of sailing with them sharp in my mind.

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