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Our Friendship

I cannot thank you enough for the precious gift of your friendship. I wish I could find something, something special, to let you know how much you mean to me. There are times it has been hard to think of words or things I could send you as a token of my feelings for you. […]

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Our Honeymonth

This is a little announcement. I am going to take a break from blogging during January. I have been moving my posts that were scheduled so that they are published after the months is over. I am not in any way bored of writing or reading posts on WordPress. It’s just that Ben and I […]

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While I Was Sleeping #9

To help me preserve my emotional health while my physical health is failing, Ben asked me to spend time… …thinking about all of the things that make me smile, make me happy. He recommended trying to think of things I can enjoy now, even though I am ill, but also things that have added meaning […]

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Your Catch

I was so young and so thin – I am not sure what you saw in me. I was swept up in every charm you were imbued with. So naive, so impressionable, so trusting – was I. Were you tempted by the vulnerability in my inexperience and immaturity? Was it really such a conquest to […]

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While I Was Sleeping #8

To help me preserve my emotional health while my physical health is failing, Ben asked me to spend time… …thinking about all of the things that make me smile, make me happy. He recommended trying to think of things I can enjoy now, even though I am ill, but also things that have added meaning […]

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The Year That Was

I realized that I had not yet started working on any kind of review of 2021. I had to ask myself – is it because I am not in the best situation right now? I decided to look back at the posts I published around a year ago: LOOKING FORWARD TO 2021 READY FOR 2021? […]

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Salon Fantasies

I have had a few dreams over the past few nights that reminded me that it is a long time since I had a hair cut. I have been dreaming about being in the chair, having a junior member of staff at the salon shampoo my hair and massage my scalp. I have been dreaming […]

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Strumming My Pain With His Fingers

My melody maker, my sweet soul shaker – he finds the harmonies that reverberate within me. The lyricist who reaches into his own depths and forms verses that delight my heart and lift my spirits. He strums the chords, they strike the right note, I hold my breath waiting as he pauses, and then… It […]

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While I Was Sleeping #7

To help me preserve my emotional health while my physical health is failing, Ben asked me to spend time… …thinking about all of the things that make me smile, make me happy. He recommended trying to think of things I can enjoy now, even though I am ill, but also things that have added meaning […]

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Suburbia

For three years, Ben and I were based in a little house in a little village, not much bigger than a hamlet really. But in November we moved. Due to my deteriorating health, we are unable to travel back to Chicago. Instead, we are going to be remaining here in the UK, while I continue […]